I am my worst enemy

Ever since I have not been able to work out. My eating habits have went down the drain. Hence the 2.4 gain last week. I do not deal with stress well, I am a stress eater. The one way I was getting rid of stress was to run. I am not looking forward to my weigh in on Monday. I feel like I keep taking 1 step forward and 10 steps back. I have been struggling to lose this last 20lbs forever!

I did stock up on healthy food and snacks last night. This Thursday will be 3 weeks that I haven't worked out. My knee is till bothering me a little so I think I will hold of running until it has been 4 weeks. But I am going to start going back to classes at the gym starting Monday or Tuesday. I just have to keep reminding my self that I deserve to lose this weight. I CAN lose this weight. Shit I have kept off over 5olbs for 4 years, I can lose 20lbs. I need to quit being my own worst enemy. There are days that I feel confident and other days that I feel bigger then a house. But yet on both of those days I could weigh the same. It just goes to show how much my own self doubt can interfere with my weight loss.

I will post my weigh in on Monday. Hopefully it will not be as bad as I expect. On a positive note! I have my eye on a few 5Ks at the end of May (if the knee is better of course) and a Mud Run the first weekend of June. I am super excited about that one. It is an endurance race, through mud and water and obstacles. Bring it on. Running through mud, does it get any better then that? ( an old high school volleyball buddy will be joining me on that one, super excited to have someone to run with! that will be a first!)

I will be posting links soon to my future races. You will have to check them out OR feel free to join me! Have a great weekend!